I guess no one will know that i signed in to this site and write a blog post like after... 3 years.

Three years. How years passed in just a blink of eye.

I don't even know i am still able to sign in to my old account with my old password! What the heck. I consider this account as if it was never existed. I never used it in these years.

I was reading back my blog posts. And i feel so close to the 19th-year-old me. It's like watching myself in front of me. I totally feel how she felt, and I always wish that she grows up to a more mature and understanding one as time pass.

Looking to all her worries of her friendships. I wish i could tell her "Your friends are all back from overseas in few years later. They will be settling down in Malaysia for at least few years first before they are to be in overseas. Your friendships are fine. You get closer with them ever since you guys been through a lot of things happened to each other together. Who knows the one who is not that close to you back in three years ago turns out to be the closest one to you now? The one who is closest to you turns out not that close anymore. Life is always full of surprise. Just don't afraid of losing anything. Go on with the flows. You will be fine."

We just grow up without even realizing, either in the same way or the opposite. There was no right and wrong. Just adapt yourself with the changes. It is not scary to realize that you don't share the same values anymore, respect the differences. The scariest thing is that you force each other to act in the same way you did and stressed out each other to get along.

I was actually struggling whether i should edit the photo wall of my blog. Put some new pictures of my new life and new friends. But then, i think, maybe i should just let them stay how they used to be. This little space belongs to the younger me, who have had the old times that I appreciate a lot. I will come back to visit them time to time. They made me who I am today.

Now, to the 22nd me. I hope that you appear to be a softer, gentler and more considerate woman in the future. You know I love you.

The 19th

Welcome my 19th birthday.
Time passes too fast. Really.
And so... I have a lot of words to my family and friends here.
The wishes of my 19th birthday.

First of all, thanks for my parents for raising me with sweats and tears 19 years.
The night before my birthday i actually called my parents and tell them 'I love you", a simple phrase which my parents always beg me to speak it out but I didn't hahaha! I shy shy mah.
They are very happy with it. I guess i make their day.
Now you know how 'expensive' my love is. Hah!

还是最爱我的男人，可惜已经娶了我妈妈。
祝福我的父母平安健康快乐。


Next, my librarian gang actually celebrated my bday few days before.
I'm so blessed!

I'm really really really lucky to have them in my life. 

I don't know how long we can go (who knows?)

But at least my teenage life is about them.

Too short for us that day. Have lots of words that I haven't tell. 

Nvm next time hahaha!

For my bday wishes...

Ying Hui: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。Lesser stress and don't feel lost anymore hahaha! A friend who always gives me positive energy and like i always said : We have seen each others naked body. 

Lisa: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。Especially 平安。Although she likes to sour me a lot but in fact she treats me really well. I like the video very much. Really.

WeiKen: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。I wish he will find a girl who loves him like his ex and he loves like his ex-ex. Sounds sarcastic but i really mean it. He is a good guy. Consider him please heh heh. Just you might need to kill cockroach yourself sometimes cos he beh harap on this. He is very dry so just moisture him cos he is very easy to aim. Lol

WeiShuang: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。

KhaiJia: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。

WeeBeng: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。And faster found his girlfriend hahaha!

PohShen: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。

And my 2C gang. I'm very blessed of having them too. Really. 

But we are tooo long didn't go for outing ald. 

It's a big contrast w the librarian gang actually. I mean for librarian we don't set every month gotta meet each other. But it's like an auto reminder ' Ah we have to go out tgt to eat what what what' Hahaha!

Cos most of us are staying outside so...haih. So hard for an outing.

My bday wishes...

JiaYing: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。I hope you will find a man who loves her in a right way and she loves him as well.

YinWhei: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。Yea i hope she will find his Mr Right always too. Hah!

KeQian: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。I wish she has lesser white hair...

XiaoYi: Wishing she is always 平安健康快乐。Especially 快乐。Thanks for lending your ears, when I was suffering in a moody mood. It really means a lot cos I really feel calm after the talk.

Timothy: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。I have only half year left to see you in Msia. Don't really wana to let you go but that's life. It isn't life if no separation. Sincerely wishing you have a better life there and take care!

ZiJie: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。Wish he always this 白白胖胖。Please treat Lisa better lah. He actually treats me kinda well just likes to make fun of me lol.

KangSheng: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。My running man please stay funny!

JinJack: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。

YuEn: Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐! Thanks for lending me wifi anyway haha!

YinWhei specially took a selfie for me. Okay okay make my day. 原来干燥真的会传染。HAHAHA! Thanks YinWhei!

And I got wish from Australia HAHAHA! Thanks YueHan! Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐。Faster find your girl!

And yea ChengDuoYan who talks craps before wishing 'Happy Birthday' to me. But thankieww!

I wish him  平安健康快乐and he said cannot. I must say keep slim, transform into lengzai and faster find a girlfriend. Okay okay as you wish hahaha! 

And SengHock Wishing he is always 平安健康快乐! Stay sweet with his leng girlfriend hah hah!

And them too! Wishing three of them are always 平安健康快乐。

Huey Yan: I wish you  平安健康快乐皮肤变美美!

And my TzuChi friends who celebrate my bday. They bought a green tea cake and it is really yummy. But i called it ''That Awkward Moment". So awkward idk what to react. But Thanks.

Selfie with them on the bed before sleep hahahaha :

I'm a blessed girl with blessed life. And all these blessing wouldn't be without everyone people in my life.

And my birthday wish is wishing these people are always 平安健康快乐。Thanks for treating me well, caring and loving me. Idk how I got you but Thank You. Words are just simply not enough to express how grateful I am. 

Lots of love, Goodnight.

几天前翻了翻博客上曾经写过的事情，突觉这些回忆好弥足珍贵，也幸好我把这些回忆都一字不落的记录了起来，得空时可以翻翻那些我们彼此生活在对方生命中的曾经。

前天去了我的宇航家里聚会，说是聚会，但实际上已应该是在他出国留学之前的最后一次见面了吧。

五年。

想到这里我就觉得有点难过。

朋友们一个个连续离开，见面好难，以后出来聚餐就变得不完整。

出国以后回国时（当然也有可能不再回来），大家都已经投入社会的怀抱，从此以后各奔东西，在过后，嫁人、带小孩，不再是圆径30公里内能以见面的距离。融入社会以后，当初那份赤子心还会在吗？

连我自己都没把握我会不会变。

我觉得好害怕，害怕这些珍贵的友谊会随着我们长大而渐渐消失。

害怕有一天就突然发现我们不联络了，不知道彼此过得怎样了，不懂他们现在交往的朋友是谁了。

Melakaaaaaaaa!

Morning peeps!
I am at Melaka now. With my librarian gang.
WOOOHOOOO!
SO SO SO Happy right now.
I guess this would be a unforgettable trip for me?
Cos initially I plan to skip my class, and come Melaka with them from Klang.
However, my stupid tutor cancel her class on Monday.
And the last presentation in for that course postponed.
Aikz.
I was so upset because we planned for this trip for so many months.
I down for many days.
Then, I decide to take bus alone from my college to Melaka here.
I asked my mum and she just replied: "Oh, go lah"
WAHHHHHHH...
Memang my mum.
I was really struggle whether to ride bus alone here.
Feel so insecure.
But luckily with the help of my classmates, I MADE IT WOOHOOO!
Went Jonker Street and we bought a gang bracelet  ♥

And the most epic part is...
Six persons slept on 2 single bed.
Yes six 18 year old teenagers pek on 2 single bed.
Of course I can't sleep well okay.
I slept at 2am and woke up at 630am.
I waited them 3 hours.
Urghhhhh
And yet they are still sleeping right now....
This explains why i'm blogging at this hour.
I crave for chicken rice but i think it's kinda hard now.


Sincerely hope that I can have a trip with 2C too.
Pray hard for it.

I was a lil trauma today.
Just at the noon, i was walking to the college to ride bus.
I bring my stuffs on, laptop, clothes because i want to go back klang.
The place i stay is in front of my college, about 5 mins walking distance.
It is located about the middle of the road.
And when I walked to almost the end of the road,  I heard someone screaming horrified.
Then i turn to the back.
Oh gosh there were two men, one on motorcycle and another one taking stick chasing that guy.
I quickly run, because if the motorcyclist drive downwards, the next one would be me.
I was super shocked.
Super lucky, I was blessed, really.
The scream of the guy is still in my mind.
That guy is lucky too, cos he ran away from the robbers.
Sigh.

All I wish is just peace in Malaysia.

Monday
When i step into my first class, econs class.....
Damn i totally forgot i have test today.
I don't know what will the results be like.
This is the subject that i have confidence the most!
Urghhhhhhh.
Just work hard for the exam.
I feel so sad.
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Yesterday finally meeting up with the librarians.
But I still cant meet up with ying hui.
It's been so long i have not met her.
So, we discuss about the melacca trip.
I really hope that we can make it.
We're so near to it!!!!!!

Wee Beng got us some souveniers from Bangkok.
A very cute key chain bag!
Feel really really touched as he always put us in his heart.
Never failed to bring us souvenir.
Thanks Beng!

I'll use it to put my sanitary pad!
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Tan Yin Whei suddenly IM me saying that she miss me.
Then my heart cries a little bit.
Hope we can go for outing soon.

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The most grateful thing ever, Cheng Duo Yan and me talked back.
He took the first step and said sorry.
I was wtf i should be the one who say sorry.
And then yea, talked a lot.
He asked me "How about the china guy?"
AGAIN....
I rmb i just told someone " I have a china from america in my class"
I don't know why the story will become "I chase the china guy???!!!!"
I laugh no cry no.
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I admit i have a love-hate relationship with my new friend.
I like she often drives me for lunch.
She's a good friend, treat me very well and caring.
Just some of her attitudes and habits.
I feel hardly to adapt with them



I need to learn of accepting people's weaknesses.
And I can do it.